It’s been awhile. The last time I wrote an e-letter to my son, he was eight months old. Now he is 19 months, and he is walking, talking, and as smart as can be!
And one of my favorite things about blogging and being a mother is that I can share this experience with every single one of you. When I first started this blog, I was six months deep into this thing called motherhood, and I wanted to document every monumental achievement, every milestone. Well, oops, I’ve been a bit lax with that this past year, but Rowan has been accomplishing a lot of things!
But here’s to being better about writing these letters to my one and only little human – a way that I can fuse my passion for writing with the love I have for my son.
It’s funny how life before you seems like a far-off dream, and yet the future seems just as out of reach. But if I think back to where you started and where you are now, the number of things you have learned is immeasurable. You grow so much right before my eyes, yet you’ve always been the same sweet boy I fell in love with from day one.
I don’t know what to write that hasn’t already been said by every mother who has a son, but I am so thankful for you. Not only do I teach you things, but you teach me things as well. You’ve taught me immense and limitless love, patience and a different perspective. I’ve become a bit more flexible, and a lot more confident, and I’ve learned what it means to be a mother. You have to be a lot more selfless and be available at all times. It also comes with its pitfalls (constant worry, anxiety, and the sacrifice of free time), but the good will always outweigh the bad.
In the spirit and of Thanksgiving and exposing my grateful heart, I wanted to list all of the ways you have made me proud, or things that I have come to love about you in these last 19 months.
- One of the best things you do for me is let me sleep at night, every night, all the way through. You are an amazing sleeper, and I honestly can’t thank you enough for it!
- I’m proud of how well you use signs to communicate with me. It isn’t always perfect, but sign language has helped us a lot when we felt like communication was a barrier. You faithfully use the signs for milk, more, eat, and thank you, and I am so impressed.
- Another thing I am grateful for is your independence. You’re able to keep yourself occupied at home while your dad or I am busy, and I also see you playing so nicely by yourself at school. This gives me hope that you will not be too greatly influenced by your peers that may be bad examples. 😬
- Following that same vein of independence, I am proud of you for attempting to do things on your own, like brushing your teeth, helping when I am dressing you, going up and down stairs, and cleaning up your toys when you are done with them. And the other day when I had the fridge open, you came right along, grabbed the gallon of milk, and tried to put it up on the counter.
- Another joy I get out of being your mother is that you a such a good boy. Everywhere we go, everyone we meet says you are so good. You are so sweet. Sure, you throw some tantrums like any other toddler does, because that is basically a rite of passage into being a two-year-old. But you are happy, your are pleasant, and you are a lover (even if you don’t cuddle with me as much anymore). You are all-around a good boy, and I couldn’t be more thankful for your temperament.
- I am grateful for your smile! It always manages to light up my entire world.
- I’m also grateful for your innocent giggles, and full-blown laughs when you’re being tickled.
- I love the way you will randomly run up to me and hug my legs.
- I love your curiosity, and the moments when things just click for you. As a mother, it’s wonderful and gratifying to watch.
- Even when you’re being challenging, you’re helping me with my patience and my follow-through, which helps in other aspects of my life.
- I love how full of potential you still are. And I can’t wait to see where our years together take us. Hopefully somewhere beautiful.
There are so many ways to love you, and I love being your mother. Please don’t grow too fast, my love. ❤️
Height: 34 inches
Loves: cars (or anything with wheels), ‘Little Baby Bum’ on Netflix, running around and screaming at the top of his lungs, climbing, blowing kisses, bananas